Whew! What a crazy couple of weeks it has been!
Have you ever had one of those moments where life is both working out very well and very…not well? I think I’m having one of those moments…
Within these past two weeks, I’ve reunited family members who haven’t seen each other in 12 years, got a new job, resigned from my current one (2 more days left from my two weeks notice), received freelance opportunities, and validated for my career choices. I also saw two people lose their jobs at very inopportune moments, a friend lose her smile, people questioning their life’s choices, and I know that tonight someone in my family will receive some rough news.
I thought that, when I graduated college, life would become a straight forward path. The ups and downs would be predictable and everything will fall into place. I thought I would jump in and know where I’m going from the get-go.
I now know that the opposite happens. I know that life gets harder. Obligations increase. Money gets tighter. Smiles and hugs are little harder to come by.
That’s not to say that life isn’t still wonderful. I’m still finding the joy out of everything. It’s just weird to realize that I’m still ridiculously young and not ready for the real world. It’s eye-opening to know that I really am powerless to what the universe has in store for me. I just have to take everything as it is. I can’t really get mad at fate for digging out this path for me. There’s no point shouting at a wall and expecting it to be a door.
It’s just weird to grow up.
These are just some thoughts that crossed my mind at 11pm the night before I fill out my new hire paperwork. This is also me following the advice of the lovely Bookaholic and just setting a few minutes to write. If I don’t force myself, I’d probably be wasting time on my Nintendo 3DS. eh heh.